A thing for spring

Yesterday I took a day off work because I was supposed to do a thing in the capital... but at the very last minute, it got canceled.

So instead I packed up the dogs and headed for my favorite dog walking beach.

It wasn't as good as last time, when we were completely alone. There were quite some people, and I kept running into them, and they were loud and chatty.

Surprisingly though, I still relaxed and enjoyed myself. At the tiny part of the beach that is sandy I even took off my shoes and socks and wandered a bit in the water. (cold! brrrr)

In the afternoon I thought I'd finally kick my butt to yoga - something I've been planning to do for about two years! - but in the end I managed to misread the hours and missed the right time.

It's like I'm trying to avoid it at all cost and I don't know why. I can feel my body needs to stretch, what with sitting behind my desk for 8 hours straight and then spending the rest of the day on the couch.

So instead I read another chapter of the midnfulness book and did another exercise.

And suddenly I' remembering how much I used to enjoy meditation, and suddenly I'm realizing just how wound up I am.

I couldn't fall asleep until 2 AM, I kept thinking about why I'm so wound up and about Cc... even cried a little bit... finally I gave up, put on 3rd rock from the sun and 3 episodes finally rocked me to sleep.

Last week and part of this week were terrible, I was anxious and restless and didn't know what to do with myself. So I was surprised to feel better yesterday evening and today, too. It's sunny outside, the spring is coming full swing and something inside of me just wants to get outside and be outside.

So for this afternoon I plan a shorter walk with the dogs, a short rollerskating session and a short jog.

Sunshine makes me feel giddy.

:)

Body scan

Yesterday I finally got to try the first of the midnfulness exercises.
I really enjoyed it. It was like a kind of a mindful body relaxation, the type I did when I did relaxation exercises. And I was able to focus through it to the end. Even though I stopped in the middle of it to answer a phone call, I was able to continue on without problems. And even though the guy that reads it gives you about 2 seconds to focus on each body part and hurries on, so I had to pause the CD every minute or so, in the end it didn't bother me.

And when finished, I was there, lying in the dark, actually awake (because it's emphasised that you're supposed to stay awake, not fall asleep doing it) and I was relaxed and focused, and I couldn't get up. Not to shower, not to brush my teeth and not even to move to the bed. Not for the life of me. Not even to set my alarm clock. So I improvised with my phone (without turning the lights on), called the big dog back to my feet (during the exercise he kept trying to get my attention and I got quite nervous at one time and scolded him to his bed, where he then lay - and when I called him back he sprung up and raced to me; sweet thing :) ) and just fell asleep.